::chronicles of arachnology::

Jerry Bruckheimer is still kicking!

2009-01-27T13:55:00.004+08:00

Check this out, I found out Jerry Bruckheimer is still working on loads of new films. I'm particulary interested in Prince of Persia, and see how it would be showing out.

Films

Snippet from wiki - Jerry Bruckheimer

Upcoming:

Pirates of the Caribbean 4 (2012) (with Walt Disney Pictures)
National Treasure 3 (2011) (with Walt Disney Pictures)
Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time (2010) (with Walt Disney Pictures)
Confessions of a Shopaholic (2009) (with Touchstone Pictures)
G-Force (2009) (with Walt Disney Pictures

Can't wait for all these films to release!!!

blogging for food?

2006-08-16T04:07:00.000+08:00

I'm not sure why some people blog so much, maybe it's one way to connect thier senses with other people. A way to express or broadcast a message. Nevertheless, blogging to some people are thier jobs, thier lives, a huge part of themselves.

hmm? should i blog more?
I'm currently mute here, i'll be back sometime, when i find time... :)

::chronicles of arachnology::

2006-04-09T21:13:00.000+08:00

bladabing, bladabung, i wish i was a dragon and fly away from here.

so many things happen lately.. don't know how to say...

maybe i'll write when i'm better.

~nick

where am i? i mean, where was i?

2005-09-27T02:44:00.000+08:00

It's been ages since i landed here-----> [this spot]<-----here

Time is so hard to find, sleep is even harder, but I manage to live.

I've been seeing so many new friends, and often i feel confused with friends and comfort, cause they both feel so close to me, as friends, and also intimacy as we gather around. I can't feel my head now, exam is in another few hours. This is prolly the worse time to put words here.

But if you do check me often for a new word, I'm here thinking of you. Yes you... you.. and it's you i've felt so happy seeing and it's like gift from above knowing you.

I wish i could explain and show you my heartfelt contents, but lets let things flow naturally.

Back to my codes and numbers.. and another sleepless night.

PIXEL's AWAY!

2005-08-12T06:49:00.000+08:00

STYLIZED

PHOTOSHOPED

this is my life

2005-08-12T04:54:00.000+08:00

it's was... 11th Aug 2005

i wake up and i realize it's 6p.m

i look outside and i see that grey sad sky.

i check for msgs on my phone and pc.

i listen to ben lee.

i look at my dragon.

i look at my notice board and see the same old posts.

i listen to more music.

i make coffee.

i make more coffee.

i make even more coffee.

i get a yahoo message from you.

i get a message from him.

i get another message from her.

i look at my watch.

it's 5.am. i'm tired... and it's now 12th of August.

stupid haze, and my lazy day is gone.

~this is my life.

my toes are cracking...

2005-08-05T02:04:00.000+08:00

cracking toes ! ! !

they make some type of sound when i walk.. damn.. what's happening to me.

MUST be the weather... or MUST be too much sleep...

I need to go out and meet ppl!~

tmw's my chance and i'm all prepared for a big weekend :D

~nick

The first month comes to an end...

2005-07-02T03:25:00.000+08:00

Well... there goes 1 month.. and it's the 4th week of the semester. How acomplished do u feel so far?

I feel like i've climbed up a staircase and ran down again. Resulting in the same postition. Something went wrong somewhere and i cannot explain where. Nevertheless... I'm progressing like some mudslime... I can see no track behind me. Maybe i'm juz too slow or this "mudslime" didn't moved at all.. where lah got mud track at the back? :(

I've been quite lazy to update my blog and it seems that there was so much metaphoric content to previous posts. Maybe writing straightforward and directly would be a good idea after all.

I'm no longer scared about feeling alone anymore, instead, I feel like this time now alone, would test me for how long i can stay passionate about my life and hold my loved ones close to my heart.

You don't have to be with someone to love them. All you needed was someone to love, not someone to have.

I'll pray for a better month ahead, and i'll pray for everyone around me.

Filled with love,
Nick

days like this...

2005-05-12T03:50:00.000+08:00

days like this… keeps me warm… keeps us warm..
and love like this means more…
days like this… keeps me warm… keeps us warm
and love like this means more… today…

dear, where is the warmth today?

I can’t sleep today, not like any other day that i would be tired out and dead asleep by now. Today is different. Todays seems cold… today seems lost. I put on my music, (eventho most of my personal favourites are gone, stupid hard disk died) and i browse to a familiar tune, days like this…

i make myself a a cup of hot coffee and stare endlessly at my monitor, I feel so empty, so dried… so incomplete…

And i’m realizing, how much i miss you today, i don’t know if you feel the same, but it doesn’t matter… coz’ it’ll already mean the world to me that we are still 2gether. I can’t ask for more, other than seeing you smile. I’m unaware if I’m the current reason 2 your current smiles, I cannot see, but I know that someone, somewhere… and out there, somehow… is keeping us all warm… today…

Now playing: The Polyphonic Spree - Part 3 (Days Like This)

the best things in life...

2005-04-11T03:33:00.000+08:00

the best things in life are not free… yet people say it is…
the best things in life are juz temporal… they are hard to mantain…
the best things in life seem so disadvantaged…
the best things in life never lasts forever…

you changed… they changed… i changed…

but yet i still hold on strong… cause when i fall, it just falls more…
when will i find someone to catch me when i fall?

when will you and i collide?

Now playing: Howie Day - Collide

2005-04-02T06:52:00.000+08:00

Blenheim Palace Final ( too lazy for more tweaks :P )

2005-03-26T21:28:00.000+08:00

The Art of Conjuring Multidimensional Existence.

-          Defy Space.
-          Create Depth.
-          Invoke Realism.
-          Reform Details.
-          Implement Shadows.
-          Use Atmospheric Features.
-          Randomize Features.
-          Optimize for Performance, Render for Quality.
-          Reuse Built in Lighting and Atmospheric Scene.

2005-03-14T07:17:00.000+08:00

::coloured::

2005-03-14T07:07:00.000+08:00

::Drager House Final::

I miss the sun, I miss the ocean, I miss everyone...

2005-03-11T22:41:00.000+08:00

My life was once made up of dreams, dreams so beautiful I could smile even in the darkest hours of my life. And within those dreams, there was a person who cares, there was a person who will be my light, and there was a person who would be the reason I would move on sharing my innermost thoughts, hugs, kisses and laughs.

Yeah, that was my life…

Once…

I can’t blame anyone if it changes, I can’t blame the world if people are hush, and I can’t blame if people change. Coz, I know I change, and I know that I go thru everyday, with tempers, tantrums, kiddish acts, screams and sometimes the shattering of your very own skull.

Nevertheless, my everyday could be so different when I had a dream in me, but I lost it… and I’m not gonna look back to find it again, cause it was a dream all this while…

You can break, burn, and blast out your hatred. You can Swear. You can say how Mean I am, do what you may. Cause at the end of the day, I would know it’s juz your temper, the way you are, and I accept you for who you are, despite all the flaws, despite all that I wants I might have, despite all the times, you speak how much you hated me. I forgive, and I say, it’s ok coz I know you don’t mean it…

But this time, if that you suddenly becomes me, and that I am someone else all of a sudden, don’t expect that I can suppress them all, cause you couldn’t… I tried, I kept my sorrows under my own pillow. I kept my tears hidden. I kept my pain and cuts to myself. I tolerated. But there was my limit in this whole relationship…

Does that mean I’m saying you didn’t tolerate? No, you did too, but everyone has their own levels. I had mine, and I never wanted to hurt or even throw a painful word at you, I never intended.

For the times it slip thru my mind, and the times it comes out like steaming gas from a kettle, I can’t do anything else but to say sorry. Or perhaps, a better way…

…cause if you feel like I’m not who you need, and my tempers you can’t tolerate. Why keep this us? Cause of love? Cause you have faith in me? Cause you feel like maybe I am the one, or perhaps you are juz confused?

Yeah, I guessed too much perhaps? We don’t need this love if it hurts that much. I don’t. You don’t. I won’t stop hiding any sweet words now, cause I think it’s not goin to help at all.

I’m not good at words and as can only describe as much. I hate to explain too much cause every time I try to, it only ends up as painful cuts and screaming hearts. And before I end this, yeah, I wanna admit I do have issues in my life, be it about friends, academics or self management. Everyone has issues, and I know that it’s a matter of themselves to sort it out, I don’t need sympathy nor even do I need to tell it to you so much more often from this day, cause every time I do, it kills that love we had.

It’s not gonna matter so much after all, cause this is where we learn to find a better path. A better road away from here...

~nick

Now playing: Sixpence None The Richer - 13 - A Million Parachutes

2005-03-08T03:57:00.000+08:00

Braving through this whole new place, new foreign smiles, these people who show u the flaws and teach u how to play dirty. I thought i found my new home, my new place.

But what i discovered, was broken promises and empty glasses. I wish there was a help when i least needed it. From u? Perhaps never, perhaps not till I would bleed to death, perhaps not till you’ve been in your throne.

…rite now you’re there, you’re proud, and you’re again standing up.. and all i would do is pray is for that moment to last, before i would have to crumble onto myself again seeing those wounds u mention about, but all i’ll do is sit at my corner, noticing how pretty MY wounds would appear now…

life is a fucked up game of deception~

2005-03-07T08:28:00.000+08:00

whoa, check out this picca, it has been rendering for like 6 days already, with 6 strips @_@ hoho.. i wonder how much longer will it take to finish.. This pic better be worth it :-L

You don't know me...

2005-03-06T18:10:00.000+08:00

You think your words are precise… you feel i have the need to change, the need to be stronger, the need to go thru all the storm without complaining.

And the moment i long for love to touch my heart, the stars juz disappear like fairy dust that lasted for a fraction of a second… you’ve not felt the hell i am in now, neither do i choose to spill it out, coz the moment i do, fire juz reigns onto my forehead and burns all of my conscious pulling me back to an eternal torture of needles and frozen spears at my heart…

You’ve not seen my hell, don’t assume u did, don’t teach me how to do things, don’t speak like you know it all better…

Coz like everyone… i have my life too…

Now playing: Moby - I Like It

Updated Webbie - Still more 2 Tweak

2005-03-04T01:37:00.000+08:00

yeah, finally, after days of searching and observing, i finally managed to compile myself a neat layout from a site that varies from all default bloggers, i wanted something unique and i here it is. I’ll be changing a lot of stuff later on but for now, this will do :P

pls comment on colours coz i’m colour blind :P (realli ler)~

till then,
have a nice week

~nick

Now playing: The Postal Service - We Will Become Silhouettes

crazy lights, and non stop 3d modelling!

2005-03-01T07:33:00.000+08:00

arrrrrrrghhhh~!!

I can't stop re-rendering my scene, the fact that i can make it more realistic using 3dsmax light tracer is killing me, cause it takes a whole dem hour to render 1 strip ( i set my image to 20 strips). This means 20 x hours :-S...

oh god.. why oh why.. so slow... @_@

anyways, i'm so hooked up coz i usually get exited when i come to a completion of my work, believe me, it gets more exiciting as u go on and when u come to a point, it'll cheer u up coz u never know the next minute, how much u adore your hard work...

:) and btw, i updated the comment thingy, so now everyone can blog :-S (i'm too lazy to fancifize my blog)

my dear frenzz.. good luck in exams, esp those in FOE.

~ gambate ~

2005-02-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

now too much lights?

2005-02-28T19:52:00.000+08:00

updated some textures and removed the skylight... too dark?

2005-02-28T19:46:00.000+08:00

so far my best render... more to tweak...

2005-02-28T19:45:00.000+08:00

after 3 days of non stop here is the progress...

come february, will u be my valentine?

2005-02-28T04:42:00.000+08:00

Here comes the cold
Break out the winter clothes
And find a love to call your own

You - enter you
Your cheeks a shade of pink
And the rest of you in powder blue

Who knows what will be
But I'll make you this guarantee
No way November will see our goodbye
When it comes to December it's obvious why
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time

Come January we're frozen inside
Making new resolutions a hundred times
February, won't you be my valentine?

I don't know why this tune, this whisper, this pretty song suddenly mean a lot to me.

I've been thru a breaktime the same time as now last year, and i guess this time, I juz hope gonna i don't have to go thru this again, cause there is no more february after today...

~nick

2005-02-22T00:55:00.000+08:00

BMW 3 Series... finally done !

too lost in you

2005-02-17T03:21:00.000+08:00

your life exists only to those who really knows you, your life dwells on people with care, your hope comes from a girl who you can always find encouragement, love, peace and trust.

yeah... you placed too much this time and it's time to learn how to make that wrongly fitted piece back into the puzzle box, and before u can make that picture perfect, you have to find the correct place. The right place in her heart, the right words, the right care, and the right love.

...and like all things that you leave on a rack, they eventually become rusty and dusty, because my actions are starting to be repetitive, continous... my words starting to become too dull, too straight... too boring...

I'm not who I am supposed to be, and I'm not who I wanna be. My heartbeat will one day fail me, and I'll see this life as meaningless. I wish that I can once again share all my troubles, all my worries, and all my sadness with that one person like i used too share with. But this is a different time, cause sharing would mean hurting...

It's always a different tone everytime I try to speak it out. I gave up on trying to speak, cause i realized I was at the wrong place, and very clearly it's the wrong time too. All I need right now is comfort, and I hope one day I'll find it again in that perfect place i used to be in...

too lost in you,
~nick

another dissapointment

2005-02-16T18:31:00.000+08:00

Sorry I am another dissappointment in your life, I can't help it cause I am a dissapointment even to myself...

Sorry I am inmature and I never grow up, cause I'm never myself when I lie here torn between my thoughts and my life, trying to find a perfect ending, and trying to bridge a gap to a better tommorow...

perhaps in time love will come thru, but sorry if I'm not who i am today...

~nick

Gazing at the last stars that remains...

2005-02-16T03:21:00.000+08:00

There`s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth,

There`s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt,

It`s still a little hard to say what's going on.

Lost it all.. making things right...?
at this point of life, all i am is a failure...

I need to gulp.. I need to drown.. I need to fall into that lost place, cause right now I can't save myself...

placing things in line

2005-02-13T15:19:00.000+08:00

You can change the face of your love, but i'm not that love...

You can expect some things to be in line for you from him, but i am not him...

You can feel loved and u can love the person you love, but i'm not that person right now...

But, I'm here till you find him... be it that person exists or not, I'll exist until your love comes to life.

~trusting in miracles
nick~

2005-02-13T13:38:00.000+08:00

she used to love ikka...

@ ____ @ I see StArZ!!!

2005-02-12T16:28:00.000+08:00

headache, stupid car still like dumb box :(

arrgh, spline modelling is so stupid, i wish i can juz submit a boxy car or something. Whenever i get all stressed, i remember how she used to make me happy when i am messed up. Ahhh, I miss her and I can't wait for monday to come. I really really hope my plans will work out.

Alrites, back to workies.. The faster i finish, the sooner I can go get me present :D

~nickie wif stars around (dizzy)

Me = Lazie

2005-02-12T00:24:00.000+08:00

modelling can sometimes make you wanna kill yourself. :P arrrghhhh
tension. this car is a bitch, so dem hard to model wei.. regret choosing a car. kanasai this time...

i am outta time..

help i shout but no one hears me :( , susah mau model itu spline kereta. drawing lines in 3d form is harder than counting how much strands of hair i have :(

the boy who is doin last minute work,
~Nick

Realizing...

2005-02-10T16:02:00.000+08:00

no problems at all? are you sure?

yeah...

there is nothing that u can't solve, nothing that you can't get over, why get all hasty with others when you can't even figure out your own problems?

Give urself time to think, look at things that will make u go thinking if... and what if... and what if... and continues...

There is nothing ever in this world this is unsolvable, so don't make your own petty problems seem so hard to get past and get thru.

Be strong nick.

Be someone who u used to be. Stay constant, Stay on the road and don't sway to your tempers and nasty thoughts.

God be with me,
~nick

Phone Call?

2005-02-10T00:22:00.000+08:00

Not everyday is like today, not everyday would be the same. Today i got to hear her voice, and things for me brightened up. Even for a short period of time, I was more than contented. And i didn't want to talk long cause i know she is prolly next to her parents, or some other friends which is not a right place/time for sweet talks. I miss her sweet talks, sigh, I miss the past that she and I used to be so happy and sentimental in many ways.

I can't hope for much, and i cannot deny the fact that it's me thinking too much, and expecting so much and so i shall say that i'm not expecting anymore more than to know she is alright. It already means the world to me that today i heard her sweet voice once again.

I still miss her like i do, and i hope my days will finish soon to go back and see her on valentine's, I've things in plan and i hope when i go back, she still remembers me as she always did, as her lil' warm cushion. sigh...

missing more of u everyday, my journey today seemed a little better.
praise the lord for filling my heart with peace.
~nick

Bedshaped...

2005-02-09T01:58:00.000+08:00

It's new year, yeah. But to me, it's just another day waiting for dawn to arrive. Sigh. I'm torn upon myself and i cannot find my way out of this hole. I know i should not think so much. Sometimes i wish i can just shut my eyes calmly and never open them again.

I've been listening to this song she gave me, Lamb - Gabriel. It soothes me in a way, and i picture her heavenly above me, my angel, my dear love. And I can't get you off my mind.

Everytime my phone vibrates, i long to see her name on it. I don't know why these few days seem so long and endless to me. Not that i have nothing to do, or no one to talk to, i do... but still :( i can't stop thinking of her. I have to learn to not be such a baby who longs for a lullaby to be sang to me before i can sleep. sigh...

I would start sending many useless msges to her, sometimes i wonder if i would end up being an annoying ass at the end of the day to her and end up in a worse situation.

listening to stina nordestam's "so this is goodbye" that causes my body to shiver and i cant shift it off my mind. GOD please help me see this as just another overloaded mind of mine trying to think too much. Cause I don't want to go thru another breakup. Sigh...

My mind doesn't stop messing with my emotions. Please stop? :( dear nick oh dear idiot, i wish i could be stronger than who i am now.

I wanna sleep and never wake up, cause it's the only way i can see her now, in my dreams.

trying to sleep..................

(i know she would be trying to sleep as well, or perhaps now, she is busy with something else, or perhaps her phone is out of credits? that's why she cannot reply me, or perhaps she is already sleeping? Sigh, i don't even know if she is at home or at the hotel she told me she is goin to, cause she didn't tell me when she would be goin. If she's at the hotel, maybe she is busy. Or maybe she is just wanna get away from me and my sms's coz they are so damn annoying? or maybe i am just being an ass cause she did reply me today saying that she is ok and she is just tired.... but i wanna know more :( sigh SO many IF's... I'm goin nuts.. NICK... STOP THINKING OF HER!!! and i would whisper to myself...hoping she would somehow hear me... "dear, i love you...")

goodnite.

yes... still dem hot!

2005-02-08T16:19:00.000+08:00

Today's weather is worse, with the heat burning my skin apart. I still cannot seem to concentrate on my work. I still dream of her,the desire to see her here now burns deep inside my heart. Call me childish, weak or anything you wish, but i still do miss her, no matter how short the period, no matter if i am still on her mind or not, and no matter how distorted my world is, I still do miss her very much.

The idiot, finding a jewel at the midst of a sandstorm.
~nick

another hot day...

2005-02-07T17:23:00.000+08:00

The sun shines today like it never shone before, the heat dissolves my concentration of trying to understand how to complete my assignment or rather how to start doing it. Memories of me and her from the past keeps on dwelling on my mind. Is this how I'll have to go thru another whole week of break not seeing her? I'm not so much of myself lately, I can't concentrate as much as i used to be, and I keep on trying to figure out why this is happening to me.

Why, I often ask myself, why does things have to happen. There was once someone who told me, if these things don't happen, relationship and love is just another word kept inside a dusty chestbox just waiting for it's time to pass out. I cannot seem to solve this life problem, this life crisis, this life confusion that never sways away from my worried mind.

I'm worried that history would repeat itself and followed by the list of events that goes with it. Yet, i believe in my dearest, i trust in her eyes, but she spoke once and she says that we can't be like this for long... and this "we" will one day have to meet it's end, and i fear it's end is coming near, too near, and too close for comfort. I think too much?

Is it so hard to be happy? Is it so hard to mantain a close, personal and intimate partner? I cannot imagine what would happen next, i'm so heated by today's sunset, so endless and so dull that i can barely see where i am headed now.

I wish this storm will come to an end, and as much as it is a wish, I worry this wish would just turn sour, or perhaps never happen.

I miss her, I miss the way we laugh and play around mindlessly. I wanna feel her hugs and kisses, and thinking of the distance between now makes this whole "being away thing" seem like an typical drama of long distance relationship. I'm too childish perhaps, I'm too stupid perhaps, and I can't stop blaming myself cause the only answer to which she would sway away from me is because of me...

me, me, still me that person who hurts that little , once happy, joyful girl, and only that blame would seem to an answer to why i am worried we will come to an end... to a total end once day

:( life is made out of endless possibilities... and i worry too much

sweet tempations turns into bitter excitements

2005-02-04T17:05:00.000+08:00

I didn't plan things to hurt u this much, neither do i control the world of lies and deception. I am just a passerby this time, trying to help, trying to heal yet failing would mean a fatal leap to another dimension of hate and tragedy.

I wonder how many other people can still be happy when they have so much to acomplish. With workload piling to the ceiling, with events that would be endless for weeks while trying to finish simple session of drama would seem so hard to find. The tension of having to complete so much, yet those who are around, earn a sense of comfort among thier friends and loved ones. Being crazy, caring or annoying, all the time around, no matter what, they are still happy. I have yet to discover their secret. No worries even with so much to do? Perhaps i am long lost in my own world of invoked tragedy...

I used to adore those kisses so much, and that calm feeling of you saying that things will be alright but I can't expect anything more, as much as things may seem so distorted sometimes, i still feel that love is there, but it's covered by sweet temptations that offer turn out ugly. Asking out for more would burn your soul inside out turning your strengths into weak moments. I've discover that there is something created between. A telepathic connection whenever you feel she's not ok, or she's not happy or she's having problems. Not to say she's not independant, i clearly know she is, but that connection between me and her juz disrupts my well being when i am not doin anything. It's like the guilt when you don't water your plant for a day, when you would do it 3 times a day without fail. Yeah, it's not goin to die without water for a day, but still, you just feel a sense of fear, a sense of discomfort, like blood rushing to your head with your veins all popped out.

Fear Factor? Nah, it's more like Adaptation Fear, if there is such a term that exists, perhaps in my own little world. I've tried to help, yet everytime it fails and it causes those clear skies to shift into an endless storm, a storm that would wipe out my existance. Yet, i still pray for clear skies, for perfectness for at least one day of clear skies, is it so hard to achieve?

Or perhaps I need to focus on my workload now, I'm not goin to tell people to do work and hurt them, productivity and concentration can only be achieved with self discipline, not thru force. Me myself have not realized that those times of relaxtion are no longer here, I'm not goin to draw back the words you gave me from the past just because i cannot handle myself right now, it's selfish and it's something i shud realize everyday. I have to place a marker on my head telling me to stop being a baby, cause it's not gonna earn me more kisses or sympathy, it will rain fire to my eyes and blind me for a while before i can move on. It's not worth dragging more people into my hole, cause it's purely defined as immaturity. Someone hammer me on my head, let my tears flow, for myself to realize, not for others to think of it as drama. I shud be left alone. I'm not asking for anything, just for you to be alright and happy with where you are now.

a confused, but partly certain mind,
~nick, still the idiot that hurts people.

2005-01-29T04:43:00.000+08:00

::dreamer::

::FALLEN ART::

2005-01-28T08:06:00.000+08:00

::Does this looks any familiar to you?::

Fallen Art, from the creators of The Cathedral comes this new comedic/weird animated short that would tame the hearts of the 3d enthusiast and especially fans of Tomek Baginski .

[visit http://www.fallen-art.com for more information ]

3d in PDF

2005-01-27T18:15:00.000+08:00

CAD Management - UNIVERSAL 3D FORMAT GAINS MOMENTUM AS ADOBE ANNOUNCES SUPPORT IN ACROBAT v7 SOFTWARE

Good news from adobe with the new improvement of plugins when intel developed technology known as Universal 3d, U3D takes a step into integrating real time 3d objects into the popular .pdf from adobe inc.

A yay to those in the 3d industry who are interested to publish 3d models/content into their .pdf based portfolio.

2005-01-20T06:20:00.001+08:00

Blue Prints

2005-01-20T06:19:00.001+08:00

Headlights View

2005-01-20T06:14:00.000+08:00

Roof View

2005-01-20T06:13:00.000+08:00

Driver's Seat View

2005-01-20T06:09:00.000+08:00

The Form Factor Study

Reference Pictures

2005-01-20T06:08:00.000+08:00

The BMW 3 Series Convertible

2005-01-19T05:33:00.000+08:00

this is my final render but it's crapped up, took me a freaking 4 hours to render, my gay elephant is somehow glowing @_@ and for what reason i dunno. However i prefer the car refraction in this one. So much for a 4hour render. I gave up on editing and tweaking for perfection, will do later, but not just now. My tortoise PC is complaining. So much for now !

2005-01-19T05:29:00.000+08:00

Global Illumination without refract maps:) not my final but i like this one a lot.

a new start for a new 2005

2004-12-31T06:51:00.000+08:00

31st of Dec 2004

...a new beginning ... for tommorow ... a new year...

Today, I begin my construction of a new building. Something I would want to complete apart from all that I've left hanging in my Models Folder. I've left so much uncompleted and undone work that should have been done by today but my lazy bum keeps me off the things that I should be looking into and leaves me dangling nowhere on earth but on planet dreamland. I seek something today, I seek discipline, strict timing, an organized lifestyle and most of all, less headaches and self breakdowns because of who I am now. I am not goin to fail my dreams and I'll find it in the new and fresh year of 2005. I pray hard and may the Lord guide me thru all this. I pray for my dearest Charin too hoping she will come back to her strong self and move on in the year 2005.

Works in Progress - Modelling

1. The Homestead
The Homestead, a holiday house built 1905 - completed 1906
by CFA Voysey in Finron-on-Sea, Essex, England.

(Day1)
Progress note:
I have started laying out the foundations by flipping thru a perfect reference I have borrowed from the library. I identify the overall shape and I begin by a few sketches and some boxes in 3dsmax.

writing code...and more codes.... and even more codes @-)

2004-10-31T03:22:00.000+08:00

Been programming a lot lately. I've been stuck here in my room with a bright yeallow light and I've been alone a lot lately. My roomate has gone to his friends house to do stuff.

I'm feeling a little unmotived compared to last time... what has happen to me? I ponder at myself...the free time i have, i draw crap, play games, chat, clean my table, sleep.... This is very unproductive, I need to get things done at a more efficient rate or rather in a shorter span of time. Realizing time flies, I am still too relaxed.

Finals are coming soon and assignments are nearing deadline everyday, and if I start to count time, it nears every second...

+ + + e v e r y s e c o n d c o u n t s + + +

I'm still stuck with so much issues that i should have overcomed so long ago. Self issues, self conflict, time management, financial crises $-( , sleeping disorder... wat more? these fundamental and basic problems should have been solved long time ago using optimal approach... (optimal approach = dun be lazy) :P

I'm still being a lazy bum... gotta keep up.. gotta move on.. gotta fight for this sem's performance!!!

+ - 8-x death of my dear digicam 8-x [ R. I .P ] - +

2004-10-29T18:46:00.000+08:00

my dear casio QV-2900UX... just.... :(

it's sad to announce that my digital camera just died a few hours ago, it's turning 3 years old in another 1 weeks time. why he had to leave me alone at this time? :(

*mourns*

may the pictures you took be remembered forever :(

2004-10-25T05:37:00.000+08:00

. . . L O O K I N G A H E A D . . .

...as my time flies by, i realize not to look back, but to look at myself ahead from the back, knowing i am somewhere ahead in time...

... instead of reviewing history, I'm looking ahead...

photograph of my Mic-O-Mic. taken on 25th Oct 2004, 5.23 a.mCute? ^_^

i'll post more pics later

2004-10-15T13:10:00.000+08:00

My Current Desktop (^_^)

2004-10-14T05:10:00.000+08:00

::13th Oct, Bus ride captures::

2004-10-14T05:08:00.000+08:00

::Bus Ride - 13th Oct 2004::
~ It's not everyday that you capture pictures while in a bus.

Arachnology

2004-10-11T08:00:00.000+08:00

Welcome to my first blog site :)

::ARACHNOLOGY::

What is arachnology?
Well, you can find this word in the dictionary, but perhaps you would have guessed it has something to do with arachnids. If you know me by spyder, then you would know why this word makes sense or rather links to me. I'm not an avid 8 legged creature collector nor am I a fan of the "spyder" sports car. It's just that the word spyder has become my identity online for quite a while and it's one of my favourite words to describe myself in an odd way.

Oh well, Arachnology, the study of the behaviour of arachnids, anddd... since spiders are archnids, anddd.... spyder is pronounced, " spIdu(r) ", anddd.... spyder depicts me, anddd.... well.. you would have guessed by now why arachnology ;)

- the beginning about me, my life, my ups and my downs.

That's all for my first post :)
^_^
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